I’ve realized we do so much for every person in our lives except for the only one who deserves it most — ourselves. To an extent, we look to others for the go-ahead in life. “What will this person think if I do this? Will he/she disapprove? How can I please this person — along with every other person out there?” I feel like nothing we do is for ourselves anymore. I’ve had these thoughts for quite a while. And maybe it’s because I’m in between jobs at the moment, but now more than ever I’ve felt judged on every damn thing in my life. And I mean everything. I won’t lie, I’m a people-pleaser. Others’ happiness comes before mine does. It has it’s advantages and disadvantages of course. Lately it’s becoming a disadvantage. Say you’ve been thinking about applying for a certain job that doesn’t seem like your type. What’s honestly so wrong with stepping out of your comfort zone and trying something new? Is it really appropriate of people to judge by giving you a negative remark or a dirty look? When did your life become theirs? Lately I’ve been feeling binned together — figuratively, of course. Held back, trying to please others, getting by without causing a chaotic storm by getting “into it” with others. I feel like I’m in a rut and needing to do something about my life. Relocation, new surroundings, I’m not sure. Or maybe if people were better at paying attention to their own lives instead of judging you for yours, I wouldn’t have the need to rant on about this. Who cares if you don’t like a decision someone else is making. It’s laid all out there for you: it’s THEIR decision, not yours. Deal with it and move on. We all have hurdles to jump through in our own lives anyway.
Here’s an article that I read earlier today that sparked me into venting about this:
15 Things You Don’t Owe Anyone At All (Though You Think You Do)
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I’ve always felt like I didn’t belong — never fit in while growing up. I still feel like I’m supposed to be a certain person to every person. It’s like everyone excepts something different out of you. But through the years of disappointment and always trying to be like they want you to be, I’ve learned that there really is nothing wrong with you. So lift yourself up and free yourself from the doubts.
It just depends on how you look at things.
Always, always be grateful for what you already have.
“It’s never too late to start over. If you weren’t happy with yesterday, try something different today. Don’t stay stuck, do better” – Alex Elle
So that’s what I’m going to do. I was in Downward Facing Dog yesterday during my practice and I wasn’t happy with how I looked — and felt. I used to be so great at keeping up with toning my body and it actually looking good. Lately I’ve had a setback because of my health (almost all better now, thankfully). So I’m slowly jumping back into my yoga practice and I’ve recently started up pilates again. It’s tough to get back into your routine workouts. I’ve realized it’s best to start off small. I went on a walk with my boyfriend that lasted about 45 minutes and the next day my thighs and calves were so sore. It’s difficult to keep up with working through your soreness. But in order for you to make a workout part of your daily routine, you need to do something every day. Even if it’s not your full workout. Because starting your workout over after a few months of rest is just plain awful. What’s more important than your workout is how you eat. Your body is so sacred. You can put whatever you want inside of it. But the thing is, it’s yours. Why hurt it with excess sugar and bad food. Plus, imagine how energized and wonderful you’d feel if you paid more attention to putting better food into your body.
So these are the two goals I’ve come to realize that I need to work on. It’s a habit I need to learn to form but it’s a very important one that could possibly change my entire future. Along with my eating habits and workout routines, I will be participating in my daily meditation practices to heal my mind.
Here’s to working at making ourselves better! 🙂